My 65 year old stepfather is having a sleepover with his friends tonight. Yes, you read that right. My 65 year old stepfather is having a sleepover. He's brought over four of his mates so they can drink and catch up. They're at the pub right now getting black-out drunk. The 'rents have been whizzing around the house like crazy trying to get everything spick and span for the guests. I'm worried about two things:

- The niece will make a fool of herself. She's headstrong, ignorant and extremely self-absorbed. She has no sense of propriety, poor manners and knows next to nothing about showing respect for her elders.
- They'll talk about religion. I have some pretty strong opinions on the subject, and some people can get very offended when you admit you don't hold any religious belief - they take it as a personal attack, as though you're saying they're an idiot for believing in these things.

Much of the east coast of Australia is on Catastrophic Fire Warning. That's the point where it's gently recommended you get the fuck out. It's been averaging 40℃ (104℉) over the past few days. It's not due to go below 30℃ (84℉) until Tuesday. I don't own a single pair of shorts that comfortably fits me anymore, so I've been lounging around in track pants with the legs rolled up. I loved summer as a kid, but now I find myself longing for the frost-covered lawns of winter.
I've been making efforts to tidy up my living space, and at every corner I find a new expense. I need a small filing cabinet or set of drawers to store all the documents and electronic doo-dads that sat in my desk drawers before I got a proper computer station. I need to buy at least six comic short boxes ($12 each). I went thought my textbooks and found that I need to purchase yet another volume to do my work - this one coming in at about $105 plus postage.
My toe is swollen, and I get a sharp pain in my foot when I walk. It looks like I've sprained it, so I'll probably be limping for a fair few weeks.
I think we scared my niece last night. I pointed out that you can't even be a cleaner in australia without qualifications these days. I told her how long it would take to get the qualifications to pursue her dream of being a dance teacher and she almost choked on her dinner. She then said that she could just become a hairdresser. I told her how long it takes to qualify, and her expression made me realise I should probably put Emergency on speed dial. I don't know if she simply hadn't previously been told how much work it takes to do, well, just about anything, or whether she was told and just ignored everyone so she could keep living in fantasy land.
It was Carl Sagan Day a few weeks back. I think I should find a decent quality copy of Carl Sagan's Cosmos.
That's all for now. The heat has kept me sleepy all day. I think I'll grab some water and take a nap.

I've been making efforts to tidy up my living space, and at every corner I find a new expense. I need a small filing cabinet or set of drawers to store all the documents and electronic doo-dads that sat in my desk drawers before I got a proper computer station. I need to buy at least six comic short boxes ($12 each). I went thought my textbooks and found that I need to purchase yet another volume to do my work - this one coming in at about $105 plus postage.
My toe is swollen, and I get a sharp pain in my foot when I walk. It looks like I've sprained it, so I'll probably be limping for a fair few weeks.
I think we scared my niece last night. I pointed out that you can't even be a cleaner in australia without qualifications these days. I told her how long it would take to get the qualifications to pursue her dream of being a dance teacher and she almost choked on her dinner. She then said that she could just become a hairdresser. I told her how long it takes to qualify, and her expression made me realise I should probably put Emergency on speed dial. I don't know if she simply hadn't previously been told how much work it takes to do, well, just about anything, or whether she was told and just ignored everyone so she could keep living in fantasy land.
It was Carl Sagan Day a few weeks back. I think I should find a decent quality copy of Carl Sagan's Cosmos.
That's all for now. The heat has kept me sleepy all day. I think I'll grab some water and take a nap.

Forgive the Deep Purple. I've taken a couple of photos in the past few days and thought I'd share them with you.
( Photos after the cut... )
( Photos after the cut... )
Guess who's coming to dinner? No, it's not a gentle-voiced black doctor dating your precious Aryan daughter.
I'll be back in Newcastle from the 29th to the 4th (including travel days), so I'll be able to catch up with you Novocastrian Nutbags on the weekend. Remember to save your money so you can bring proper tribute. I'll be expecting the fattest of your bulls, male sheep or goats, free of blemishes. NO WHEAT OR OTHER CROPS! You remember what i did to the last guy that offered me wheat. He's probably still walking about the land of Nod as we speak, the cheap bastard.

I'll be back in Newcastle from the 29th to the 4th (including travel days), so I'll be able to catch up with you Novocastrian Nutbags on the weekend. Remember to save your money so you can bring proper tribute. I'll be expecting the fattest of your bulls, male sheep or goats, free of blemishes. NO WHEAT OR OTHER CROPS! You remember what i did to the last guy that offered me wheat. He's probably still walking about the land of Nod as we speak, the cheap bastard.

LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT
LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT
++++++++++++++++++++++++?????++++++++++++++++++++++++++===========~~~=======~~~~~::::::~~:::::::~~~~ ==++++++++++++++++++I$7III+???+++++++++++++++++++++===================~=~~==~~~~~:::::::::::::::~~~~ ====+++++++++++?I$8ZO8OZ$7$$++??++++++++++++++++++================~~~~=~~~~~~~~~:::::::::::::~~~~~~~ =====++++++++Z$O$ZOOOO88OI77???++??I777II??+++++++=================~~~~~~~~~~~:::::::::::::~~~~~~~~~ =====+++++O7$7OZO8O7++?7N8$IZ7+I777IIIIIIIIII777?==================~~~~==~~~~::::::::::~~~:~~~~~~~~~ =======+Z$$ZOOZ=++++++++?NII77III7III?IIIIIIIIIIII7+====================~~~~~::::::::::::::~~~~~~~~~ ======Z$IZZZO==+++++++++7IIII7I7IIII?????IIIII?I?IIII7=================~~~~~~:::::::::::::~~~~~=~~~~ ~~====+Z8?OO+====+++++++IIIII77III??????????????????II?7+==============~::::::::::::::~~~~~~~===~=== =======ND8N+======+++$IIII7777IIIIII????????????++++++??II======~~~===~~::::::::::::~~~~~~~~======== ========DZM=======++Z?777$$7IIIIIIIIII?I?+??????+++++=++?III==~~~~~~~~~~:::::::::::~~~~~~~~========= ~~~================Z7I7$$$77I7IIIIII????????????++++=====+???~~~~~~~~:~:::::::::::~~~~~~~~~========= ~~~~~~============Z$777$$$777IIIIIIII???????+???+++++=====+?II=:~~~~~~~~~~::::~~~~~~~~~~~~~========+ ~~~~~~~~~~========Z$$7$$$$$777IIIIIII????????++++++++======+?II=~~~~~~~~::::::~~~~~~~===~~====++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~=~====ZZZ$$$$$$777IIIIIII?????++?+++??++++======+?II?~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=======++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=~=+ZZZZ$$$$$7$77IIIIII??????+???++?++++======???II+~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=~==~~===+++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~==ZZZ$$$$$$$$7777III????????????++?++++=====++?II7~~=~~~~~~~~~~========+++++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZZZ$$$$$$$$$$77IIIII???????????+??+++++=====+?II7=====~~~=~~=========+++++++++???? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=O$Z$$$$$$$$$$$77777I????????????????+++======?II7?===================+++=+++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===OZZ$$$$$Z$$$$77IIII?????????????????+====~==+?I77=====================+++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===$OZ$ZZZ$Z$$$7777IIII???????????+?+??++=====+??77I==================+=+++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=~=+OOZ$$Z$$$$$77II7III?????????????????+====???I77===============++++++++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~======OZ$ZZ$$$$7777IIII?????????I??IIIII?????????I7=============+====+++++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=====OZZZ$$$$$777IIIIII????IIIIIII???III???+++?I7====================+++++++++++ :~~~~~:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===~OOZZZ$$$77777IIIIII??IIIIIIII7III??++++?I?I7?====================++++++++++ :::~~~:::~~~~~~~~~~~~===ZZZZZZ$$$$777777IIIIIIIII77I77?=+I7III?===I77I============================== :::~~~:::::::~~~~~~~===Z$$Z$ZZZZ$$77777777II7777777?I7I77ZZZOZ$ZZ$+=+7============================== ::::::~~:::::~~~~~~~=~Z$$$$$$ZZZ$$$$777777777777I?777Z8Z$I=~~=:~~IZO+=?=============~~~~============ ::::::::::::::~~~~~~I$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$77777IIII7I?7$ZZZI~~7~::~~:~:~:::O?=====~=~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~== ::::::::::::::~~~~:$$$$$$$II??III77IIIIIIIIII7$$8I?~?~~:D8Z8888O8D~,:=O?==~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ::::::::::::::~~~Z777$$7I?==++???????I?II?I7ZZOI=:OOD88888DD888D8888O$?==~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::~~~~~~~ ::::::::::::::~$7777$$77?+++++???????II777OOI8ZD8OOOOZ$OOOOOOZ$ZO888O?==~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::=~::~~~: :::::::::::::~Z777777$77????I??????I777Z8D888OOOZZZZZ77I?78O7I?III8+DZ=~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::::,.::::::: ::::::::::::=$7777777$$77??I$777777$Z88888D88OZZZ$$Z7I7?????Z7??II??+7.~~~~~~~~~~:::::::::,::~:::::: ::::::::::::$77777777$$$IIIII?88DN8O$$==+:=O788OZZZ$$7777IIIII7III+?$.77~~~~::::::::::::::::~=:::::: :::::::::::$777777777$$$$77III77777II??7$??~~7~=88OZZ$7I?++????+??O,,:II7~::::::::::::::::::=?:,::~~ ::::::::::$77777777777$$$$$$7777777777II77$Z=7:~~::I~::$O7$$Z+~Z,,~=~=O?I:::::::::::::,,,,,:=?==++++ :::::::::7$777777777777$77$$$$$$$$$$$$$7III77O7==~:?~,:=~::~:::~,::==OI?I~:::::::::,:::+==+==?++++++ :::::::::$7$777777777777$7$$$$$$$$$$$$$7$7III7778+~7~::?~,:::::~+:~?Z++II:::::::::::==+++++++??+++++ ~~~:::,:~7$7$77777777777777777777777$$$$$$7IIIIII?77$I=7~:::$::I7$?++?IIO::~=++=+++++++++=++++??++++ ~~~~~~~=?$$$77777777777777777I77III77777$$$$$7IIIII?+I777I7ZOZI+++=+?IIZ++++++++++++++=+==+=++??++++ ~~====?+$$$$$$7777777777777777I7I77I7II7777$$$$77IIII??I+++++===++III$$????++++++++====+++++++?????? +=+++++?$$$$$777$7777777777II7I7I77IIIIII7777$$$$$$77IIIIIIIIIIIII$ZZ$Z??+++++++++++++++++????????II ???????I$$$$$$$$$$7777777I7I777II777II?IIIII777$$$$$ZZZ$$7777$ZZZ$$77$Z++++==++++++++++?+????????I?? 7IIIII??I7$Z$$$$$$$$777777II7I7II77IIIIIIIIIIII77777$$$7$$$ZZ$$7II7II$Z++~=~=~~=++??????????????IIII I7777I777$$Z$$$$$$777$7777I77III77IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII777777II?IIIII$$++++++++++?++====++???I?I?I?I 77777I777$ZZ$$$$7$77$7$7777777III7IIIIIIII?IIII???????III7III???III7$$??+++??????????????=~~?I?IIIII III7IIIIIZZZZ$$$$777777$7III7IIII7777IIII???I??????++???III++++??II7$ZI?+??????=~~~:=???????????III7 I7I77III77$ZZ$$$$$$7777777I7IIIII7II7IIIII???????++++++???+++++??II$$7?????~=~==++?????????????????+ 7I77?+I$7IOZZ$$$$$7$7777777777II777IIIIIII??II????+++++??+++++???I7ZZ????+?++++++++++~~~~~~==?+++??I 7I=77?I7777ZZO$$$$$$7777777777IIIII7IIIIIIIIII????++++?????????I77$ZZI????++++++++++++++++?=~~7~:::: $7I77I,+?I$7OOZZZ$$$$$$7777777IIIII7IIIIIIIIIII??I???????I????II7$$OI$I?I???????????+~~:~::::~?~::~: $$$Z777$$77$8OOZZZ$$$77$$77777III777777IIII7777II?II????III?II7$$ZZ7$$7777???+=~~~~::::::::::?7:=+++ 77$7$$$O7$I$$$ZZOZ$Z$$$777777777777II77IIII777777IIIII?IIIII7$$ZZZO$$$$77I++=~~:::::::::~:~~?+=+++== 77$7IZ$7Z$$$$$$8OOOZ$$$$$Z7$7777777777777777777777IIIIIII77$$$ZZOZ$$$$$$777$$+:::::::::=++=+?+?+++++ 7I7$I777$$$$Z$$ZO$O$ZZ$$$$7777$7777777777777777$777777777$$ZZZO8OOZZ$$7777777I+I~:::~==+=+++??I????? IIII77$$$$I7Z$Z$$7O7OZZZZ$$Z$$$$$$$I7$$$$$77$$$$$$77$$$$$ZZZZ8OZZZZZZ7$$$7=++77$I$I7I++??+++?I???III 77I~?7777Z7777Z$$$7$Z78O7ZZZZZ$Z$ZZ$ZZZZ$ZZZ$$$$$$ZZZZZO88OOZOOZ$$ZZ$7$7Z$7$$I~+7$ZZ$Z+7I$?II??I?III :+~~=~~~$$$$$$$$7$$$7$$$$$Z7Z$$$$O$7O$ZZOOZ$OZ888O8888OOOOOZZZZZZ$Z$$$$77777$$$$777$$$$77ZZ$7I7III77 =~+~+~~~~:~~7$$$$Z$$7$$777I7777II7Z7OZ7OOOZO7$$88O$OOOZ$$ZZZ$$ZZZ$$$$$$77I+7I7$$Z$$$ZZ$$$$Z$$$7Z77I7 =+=+~MMMMM:~~?$$$$7$7DMMMMZ7II7IIMMMMM77Z77O7$7$ZNMMMM$Z$7MMMMZ$$$MMMN7MMMMM7$$NMMM$MMMMMMMMMMMZI$77 +I$I+. . +$$$$$$78... ... .+IIII. . .77$$7$77$7$Z ...M$7M. ..8$$M. $M....M7$$M. .M. ... .....$$ZZ$ +I=~?. .$$$7+~:N .. ..... ..I7I. ..77$77$77777$, ~77... .O$I 7M. M$77M. .M........ .$Z$ZZ =+7+O. ..:~ZZ=:~.....+I$M ,7I. .I7$7$$ZII77IM .$$. . .7M. M7M. M777M .M$$$.....Z$$$Z$Z$ ZDDD8. .:::?~:M 7~~=+. .77. ..I$$$77Z$$77II ..MM. M+...I7M. M777M .M777... .$$$$$$$$ OZ$DZ. .=~::::M .M+=~+. .7$. ..Z77:~?Z$$ZIII7.......M .?. .O77M. M777M .M77$... $$$$$$$Z OD$DO. ..::~~~~M. +~=~~. ..7$. ...+~7ZZ?+7Z$$7$O. ..I... .77IM. M777M. .M$$7.... $$$Z$$$Z 8OZDZ ~::=+=~.....D+=N.. M$$. ..?$$$7$$$$Z$77$.. .~$7.. ~$7$M. :7$Z:...N$$$.....$$$ZZZZ? DOOD+. ..?$.... .. ...Z$7. ....M$7$77Z7$M. ..M$N.. M$7$7.. ...... .7$$$.....$ZZZZZZ$ O8DDD. .. .. .+~~D.... .M$$$$..........MZO7$77I$I. . .777.....$$$$$7~... .. D77IO$.....$7$$Z$Z$ OZDDO88DZ?:::=+7$Z7IZ?OMN?~ZZZZZZ$$?77$7777$77777$I$7$7777$$77777I$$$$$I$$$DMMDZZ7I?ZO$$7777$7$7$Z$$ ZODDO8O?~~~~:~,:=7ZI$$?+~:~~+Z$$Z$==??$Z$$7777$7$$$$7$$$Z7777777777$D$$IZ$$$OZZZZ7+$I$ZZ$$$77$$7$$7$
LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT
LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT
++++++++++++++++++++++++?????++++++++++++++++++++++++++===========~~~=======~~~~~::::::~~:::::::~~~~ ==++++++++++++++++++I$7III+???+++++++++++++++++++++===================~=~~==~~~~~:::::::::::::::~~~~ ====+++++++++++?I$8ZO8OZ$7$$++??++++++++++++++++++================~~~~=~~~~~~~~~:::::::::::::~~~~~~~ =====++++++++Z$O$ZOOOO88OI77???++??I777II??+++++++=================~~~~~~~~~~~:::::::::::::~~~~~~~~~ =====+++++O7$7OZO8O7++?7N8$IZ7+I777IIIIIIIIII777?==================~~~~==~~~~::::::::::~~~:~~~~~~~~~ =======+Z$$ZOOZ=++++++++?NII77III7III?IIIIIIIIIIII7+====================~~~~~::::::::::::::~~~~~~~~~ ======Z$IZZZO==+++++++++7IIII7I7IIII?????IIIII?I?IIII7=================~~~~~~:::::::::::::~~~~~=~~~~ ~~====+Z8?OO+====+++++++IIIII77III??????????????????II?7+==============~::::::::::::::~~~~~~~===~=== =======ND8N+======+++$IIII7777IIIIII????????????++++++??II======~~~===~~::::::::::::~~~~~~~~======== ========DZM=======++Z?777$$7IIIIIIIIII?I?+??????+++++=++?III==~~~~~~~~~~:::::::::::~~~~~~~~========= ~~~================Z7I7$$$77I7IIIIII????????????++++=====+???~~~~~~~~:~:::::::::::~~~~~~~~~========= ~~~~~~============Z$777$$$777IIIIIIII???????+???+++++=====+?II=:~~~~~~~~~~::::~~~~~~~~~~~~~========+ ~~~~~~~~~~========Z$$7$$$$$777IIIIIII????????++++++++======+?II=~~~~~~~~::::::~~~~~~~===~~====++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~=~====ZZZ$$$$$$777IIIIIII?????++?+++??++++======+?II?~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=======++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=~=+ZZZZ$$$$$7$77IIIIII??????+???++?++++======???II+~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=~==~~===+++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~==ZZZ$$$$$$$$7777III????????????++?++++=====++?II7~~=~~~~~~~~~~========+++++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZZZ$$$$$$$$$$77IIIII???????????+??+++++=====+?II7=====~~~=~~=========+++++++++???? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=O$Z$$$$$$$$$$$77777I????????????????+++======?II7?===================+++=+++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===OZZ$$$$$Z$$$$77IIII?????????????????+====~==+?I77=====================+++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===$OZ$ZZZ$Z$$$7777IIII???????????+?+??++=====+??77I==================+=+++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=~=+OOZ$$Z$$$$$77II7III?????????????????+====???I77===============++++++++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~======OZ$ZZ$$$$7777IIII?????????I??IIIII?????????I7=============+====+++++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=====OZZZ$$$$$777IIIIII????IIIIIII???III???+++?I7====================+++++++++++ :~~~~~:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===~OOZZZ$$$77777IIIIII??IIIIIIII7III??++++?I?I7?====================++++++++++ :::~~~:::~~~~~~~~~~~~===ZZZZZZ$$$$777777IIIIIIIII77I77?=+I7III?===I77I============================== :::~~~:::::::~~~~~~~===Z$$Z$ZZZZ$$77777777II7777777?I7I77ZZZOZ$ZZ$+=+7============================== ::::::~~:::::~~~~~~~=~Z$$$$$$ZZZ$$$$777777777777I?777Z8Z$I=~~=:~~IZO+=?=============~~~~============ ::::::::::::::~~~~~~I$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$77777IIII7I?7$ZZZI~~7~::~~:~:~:::O?=====~=~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~== ::::::::::::::~~~~:$$$$$$$II??III77IIIIIIIIII7$$8I?~?~~:D8Z8888O8D~,:=O?==~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ::::::::::::::~~~Z777$$7I?==++???????I?II?I7ZZOI=:OOD88888DD888D8888O$?==~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::~~~~~~~ ::::::::::::::~$7777$$77?+++++???????II777OOI8ZD8OOOOZ$OOOOOOZ$ZO888O?==~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::=~::~~~: :::::::::::::~Z777777$77????I??????I777Z8D888OOOZZZZZ77I?78O7I?III8+DZ=~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::::,.::::::: ::::::::::::=$7777777$$77??I$777777$Z88888D88OZZZ$$Z7I7?????Z7??II??+7.~~~~~~~~~~:::::::::,::~:::::: ::::::::::::$77777777$$$IIIII?88DN8O$$==+:=O788OZZZ$$7777IIIII7III+?$.77~~~~::::::::::::::::~=:::::: :::::::::::$777777777$$$$77III77777II??7$??~~7~=88OZZ$7I?++????+??O,,:II7~::::::::::::::::::=?:,::~~ ::::::::::$77777777777$$$$$$7777777777II77$Z=7:~~::I~::$O7$$Z+~Z,,~=~=O?I:::::::::::::,,,,,:=?==++++ :::::::::7$777777777777$77$$$$$$$$$$$$$7III77O7==~:?~,:=~::~:::~,::==OI?I~:::::::::,:::+==+==?++++++ :::::::::$7$777777777777$7$$$$$$$$$$$$$7$7III7778+~7~::?~,:::::~+:~?Z++II:::::::::::==+++++++??+++++ ~~~:::,:~7$7$77777777777777777777777$$$$$$7IIIIII?77$I=7~:::$::I7$?++?IIO::~=++=+++++++++=++++??++++ ~~~~~~~=?$$$77777777777777777I77III77777$$$$$7IIIII?+I777I7ZOZI+++=+?IIZ++++++++++++++=+==+=++??++++ ~~====?+$$$$$$7777777777777777I7I77I7II7777$$$$77IIII??I+++++===++III$$????++++++++====+++++++?????? +=+++++?$$$$$777$7777777777II7I7I77IIIIII7777$$$$$$77IIIIIIIIIIIII$ZZ$Z??+++++++++++++++++????????II ???????I$$$$$$$$$$7777777I7I777II777II?IIIII777$$$$$ZZZ$$7777$ZZZ$$77$Z++++==++++++++++?+????????I?? 7IIIII??I7$Z$$$$$$$$777777II7I7II77IIIIIIIIIIII77777$$$7$$$ZZ$$7II7II$Z++~=~=~~=++??????????????IIII I7777I777$$Z$$$$$$777$7777I77III77IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII777777II?IIIII$$++++++++++?++====++???I?I?I?I 77777I777$ZZ$$$$7$77$7$7777777III7IIIIIIII?IIII???????III7III???III7$$??+++??????????????=~~?I?IIIII III7IIIIIZZZZ$$$$777777$7III7IIII7777IIII???I??????++???III++++??II7$ZI?+??????=~~~:=???????????III7 I7I77III77$ZZ$$$$$$7777777I7IIIII7II7IIIII???????++++++???+++++??II$$7?????~=~==++?????????????????+ 7I77?+I$7IOZZ$$$$$7$7777777777II777IIIIIII??II????+++++??+++++???I7ZZ????+?++++++++++~~~~~~==?+++??I 7I=77?I7777ZZO$$$$$$7777777777IIIII7IIIIIIIIII????++++?????????I77$ZZI????++++++++++++++++?=~~7~:::: $7I77I,+?I$7OOZZZ$$$$$$7777777IIIII7IIIIIIIIIII??I???????I????II7$$OI$I?I???????????+~~:~::::~?~::~: $$$Z777$$77$8OOZZZ$$$77$$77777III777777IIII7777II?II????III?II7$$ZZ7$$7777???+=~~~~::::::::::?7:=+++ 77$7$$$O7$I$$$ZZOZ$Z$$$777777777777II77IIII777777IIIII?IIIII7$$ZZZO$$$$77I++=~~:::::::::~:~~?+=+++== 77$7IZ$7Z$$$$$$8OOOZ$$$$$Z7$7777777777777777777777IIIIIII77$$$ZZOZ$$$$$$777$$+:::::::::=++=+?+?+++++ 7I7$I777$$$$Z$$ZO$O$ZZ$$$$7777$7777777777777777$777777777$$ZZZO8OOZZ$$7777777I+I~:::~==+=+++??I????? IIII77$$$$I7Z$Z$$7O7OZZZZ$$Z$$$$$$$I7$$$$$77$$$$$$77$$$$$ZZZZ8OZZZZZZ7$$$7=++77$I$I7I++??+++?I???III 77I~?7777Z7777Z$$$7$Z78O7ZZZZZ$Z$ZZ$ZZZZ$ZZZ$$$$$$ZZZZZO88OOZOOZ$$ZZ$7$7Z$7$$I~+7$ZZ$Z+7I$?II??I?III :+~~=~~~$$$$$$$$7$$$7$$$$$Z7Z$$$$O$7O$ZZOOZ$OZ888O8888OOOOOZZZZZZ$Z$$$$77777$$$$777$$$$77ZZ$7I7III77 =~+~+~~~~:~~7$$$$Z$$7$$777I7777II7Z7OZ7OOOZO7$$88O$OOOZ$$ZZZ$$ZZZ$$$$$$77I+7I7$$Z$$$ZZ$$$$Z$$$7Z77I7 =+=+~MMMMM:~~?$$$$7$7DMMMMZ7II7IIMMMMM77Z77O7$7$ZNMMMM$Z$7MMMMZ$$$MMMN7MMMMM7$$NMMM$MMMMMMMMMMMZI$77 +I$I+. . +$$$$$$78... ... .+IIII. . .77$$7$77$7$Z ...M$7M. ..8$$M. $M....M7$$M. .M. ... .....$$ZZ$ +I=~?. .$$$7+~:N .. ..... ..I7I. ..77$77$77777$, ~77... .O$I 7M. M$77M. .M........ .$Z$ZZ =+7+O. ..:~ZZ=:~.....+I$M ,7I. .I7$7$$ZII77IM .$$. . .7M. M7M. M777M .M$$$.....Z$$$Z$Z$ ZDDD8. .:::?~:M 7~~=+. .77. ..I$$$77Z$$77II ..MM. M+...I7M. M777M .M777... .$$$$$$$$ OZ$DZ. .=~::::M .M+=~+. .7$. ..Z77:~?Z$$ZIII7.......M .?. .O77M. M777M .M77$... $$$$$$$Z OD$DO. ..::~~~~M. +~=~~. ..7$. ...+~7ZZ?+7Z$$7$O. ..I... .77IM. M777M. .M$$7.... $$$Z$$$Z 8OZDZ ~::=+=~.....D+=N.. M$$. ..?$$$7$$$$Z$77$.. .~$7.. ~$7$M. :7$Z:...N$$$.....$$$ZZZZ? DOOD+. ..?$.... .. ...Z$7. ....M$7$77Z7$M. ..M$N.. M$7$7.. ...... .7$$$.....$ZZZZZZ$ O8DDD. .. .. .+~~D.... .M$$$$..........MZO7$77I$I. . .777.....$$$$$7~... .. D77IO$.....$7$$Z$Z$ OZDDO88DZ?:::=+7$Z7IZ?OMN?~ZZZZZZ$$?77$7777$77777$I$7$7777$$77777I$$$$$I$$$DMMDZZ7I?ZO$$7777$7$7$Z$$ ZODDO8O?~~~~:~,:=7ZI$$?+~:~~+Z$$Z$==??$Z$$7777$7$$$$7$$$Z7777777777$D$$IZ$$$OZZZZ7+$I$ZZ$$$77$$7$$7$
LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT
LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT LOLWUT
++++++++++++++++++++++++?????++++++++++++++++++++++++++===========~~~=======~~~~~::::::~~:::::::~~~~ ==++++++++++++++++++I$7III+???+++++++++++++++++++++===================~=~~==~~~~~:::::::::::::::~~~~ ====+++++++++++?I$8ZO8OZ$7$$++??++++++++++++++++++================~~~~=~~~~~~~~~:::::::::::::~~~~~~~ =====++++++++Z$O$ZOOOO88OI77???++??I777II??+++++++=================~~~~~~~~~~~:::::::::::::~~~~~~~~~ =====+++++O7$7OZO8O7++?7N8$IZ7+I777IIIIIIIIII777?==================~~~~==~~~~::::::::::~~~:~~~~~~~~~ =======+Z$$ZOOZ=++++++++?NII77III7III?IIIIIIIIIIII7+====================~~~~~::::::::::::::~~~~~~~~~ ======Z$IZZZO==+++++++++7IIII7I7IIII?????IIIII?I?IIII7=================~~~~~~:::::::::::::~~~~~=~~~~ ~~====+Z8?OO+====+++++++IIIII77III??????????????????II?7+==============~::::::::::::::~~~~~~~===~=== =======ND8N+======+++$IIII7777IIIIII????????????++++++??II======~~~===~~::::::::::::~~~~~~~~======== ========DZM=======++Z?777$$7IIIIIIIIII?I?+??????+++++=++?III==~~~~~~~~~~:::::::::::~~~~~~~~========= ~~~================Z7I7$$$77I7IIIIII????????????++++=====+???~~~~~~~~:~:::::::::::~~~~~~~~~========= ~~~~~~============Z$777$$$777IIIIIIII???????+???+++++=====+?II=:~~~~~~~~~~::::~~~~~~~~~~~~~========+ ~~~~~~~~~~========Z$$7$$$$$777IIIIIII????????++++++++======+?II=~~~~~~~~::::::~~~~~~~===~~====++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~=~====ZZZ$$$$$$777IIIIIII?????++?+++??++++======+?II?~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=======++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=~=+ZZZZ$$$$$7$77IIIIII??????+???++?++++======???II+~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=~==~~===+++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~==ZZZ$$$$$$$$7777III????????????++?++++=====++?II7~~=~~~~~~~~~~========+++++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZZZ$$$$$$$$$$77IIIII???????????+??+++++=====+?II7=====~~~=~~=========+++++++++???? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=O$Z$$$$$$$$$$$77777I????????????????+++======?II7?===================+++=+++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===OZZ$$$$$Z$$$$77IIII?????????????????+====~==+?I77=====================+++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===$OZ$ZZZ$Z$$$7777IIII???????????+?+??++=====+??77I==================+=+++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=~=+OOZ$$Z$$$$$77II7III?????????????????+====???I77===============++++++++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~======OZ$ZZ$$$$7777IIII?????????I??IIIII?????????I7=============+====+++++++++++++ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~=====OZZZ$$$$$777IIIIII????IIIIIII???III???+++?I7====================+++++++++++ :~~~~~:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===~OOZZZ$$$77777IIIIII??IIIIIIII7III??++++?I?I7?====================++++++++++ :::~~~:::~~~~~~~~~~~~===ZZZZZZ$$$$777777IIIIIIIII77I77?=+I7III?===I77I============================== :::~~~:::::::~~~~~~~===Z$$Z$ZZZZ$$77777777II7777777?I7I77ZZZOZ$ZZ$+=+7============================== ::::::~~:::::~~~~~~~=~Z$$$$$$ZZZ$$$$777777777777I?777Z8Z$I=~~=:~~IZO+=?=============~~~~============ ::::::::::::::~~~~~~I$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$77777IIII7I?7$ZZZI~~7~::~~:~:~:::O?=====~=~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~== ::::::::::::::~~~~:$$$$$$$II??III77IIIIIIIIII7$$8I?~?~~:D8Z8888O8D~,:=O?==~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ::::::::::::::~~~Z777$$7I?==++???????I?II?I7ZZOI=:OOD88888DD888D8888O$?==~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::~~~~~~~ ::::::::::::::~$7777$$77?+++++???????II777OOI8ZD8OOOOZ$OOOOOOZ$ZO888O?==~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::=~::~~~: :::::::::::::~Z777777$77????I??????I777Z8D888OOOZZZZZ77I?78O7I?III8+DZ=~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::::,.::::::: ::::::::::::=$7777777$$77??I$777777$Z88888D88OZZZ$$Z7I7?????Z7??II??+7.~~~~~~~~~~:::::::::,::~:::::: ::::::::::::$77777777$$$IIIII?88DN8O$$==+:=O788OZZZ$$7777IIIII7III+?$.77~~~~::::::::::::::::~=:::::: :::::::::::$777777777$$$$77III77777II??7$??~~7~=88OZZ$7I?++????+??O,,:II7~::::::::::::::::::=?:,::~~ ::::::::::$77777777777$$$$$$7777777777II77$Z=7:~~::I~::$O7$$Z+~Z,,~=~=O?I:::::::::::::,,,,,:=?==++++ :::::::::7$777777777777$77$$$$$$$$$$$$$7III77O7==~:?~,:=~::~:::~,::==OI?I~:::::::::,:::+==+==?++++++ :::::::::$7$777777777777$7$$$$$$$$$$$$$7$7III7778+~7~::?~,:::::~+:~?Z++II:::::::::::==+++++++??+++++ ~~~:::,:~7$7$77777777777777777777777$$$$$$7IIIIII?77$I=7~:::$::I7$?++?IIO::~=++=+++++++++=++++??++++ ~~~~~~~=?$$$77777777777777777I77III77777$$$$$7IIIII?+I777I7ZOZI+++=+?IIZ++++++++++++++=+==+=++??++++ ~~====?+$$$$$$7777777777777777I7I77I7II7777$$$$77IIII??I+++++===++III$$????++++++++====+++++++?????? +=+++++?$$$$$777$7777777777II7I7I77IIIIII7777$$$$$$77IIIIIIIIIIIII$ZZ$Z??+++++++++++++++++????????II ???????I$$$$$$$$$$7777777I7I777II777II?IIIII777$$$$$ZZZ$$7777$ZZZ$$77$Z++++==++++++++++?+????????I?? 7IIIII??I7$Z$$$$$$$$777777II7I7II77IIIIIIIIIIII77777$$$7$$$ZZ$$7II7II$Z++~=~=~~=++??????????????IIII I7777I777$$Z$$$$$$777$7777I77III77IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII777777II?IIIII$$++++++++++?++====++???I?I?I?I 77777I777$ZZ$$$$7$77$7$7777777III7IIIIIIII?IIII???????III7III???III7$$??+++??????????????=~~?I?IIIII III7IIIIIZZZZ$$$$777777$7III7IIII7777IIII???I??????++???III++++??II7$ZI?+??????=~~~:=???????????III7 I7I77III77$ZZ$$$$$$7777777I7IIIII7II7IIIII???????++++++???+++++??II$$7?????~=~==++?????????????????+ 7I77?+I$7IOZZ$$$$$7$7777777777II777IIIIIII??II????+++++??+++++???I7ZZ????+?++++++++++~~~~~~==?+++??I 7I=77?I7777ZZO$$$$$$7777777777IIIII7IIIIIIIIII????++++?????????I77$ZZI????++++++++++++++++?=~~7~:::: $7I77I,+?I$7OOZZZ$$$$$$7777777IIIII7IIIIIIIIIII??I???????I????II7$$OI$I?I???????????+~~:~::::~?~::~: $$$Z777$$77$8OOZZZ$$$77$$77777III777777IIII7777II?II????III?II7$$ZZ7$$7777???+=~~~~::::::::::?7:=+++ 77$7$$$O7$I$$$ZZOZ$Z$$$777777777777II77IIII777777IIIII?IIIII7$$ZZZO$$$$77I++=~~:::::::::~:~~?+=+++== 77$7IZ$7Z$$$$$$8OOOZ$$$$$Z7$7777777777777777777777IIIIIII77$$$ZZOZ$$$$$$777$$+:::::::::=++=+?+?+++++ 7I7$I777$$$$Z$$ZO$O$ZZ$$$$7777$7777777777777777$777777777$$ZZZO8OOZZ$$7777777I+I~:::~==+=+++??I????? IIII77$$$$I7Z$Z$$7O7OZZZZ$$Z$$$$$$$I7$$$$$77$$$$$$77$$$$$ZZZZ8OZZZZZZ7$$$7=++77$I$I7I++??+++?I???III 77I~?7777Z7777Z$$$7$Z78O7ZZZZZ$Z$ZZ$ZZZZ$ZZZ$$$$$$ZZZZZO88OOZOOZ$$ZZ$7$7Z$7$$I~+7$ZZ$Z+7I$?II??I?III :+~~=~~~$$$$$$$$7$$$7$$$$$Z7Z$$$$O$7O$ZZOOZ$OZ888O8888OOOOOZZZZZZ$Z$$$$77777$$$$777$$$$77ZZ$7I7III77 =~+~+~~~~:~~7$$$$Z$$7$$777I7777II7Z7OZ7OOOZO7$$88O$OOOZ$$ZZZ$$ZZZ$$$$$$77I+7I7$$Z$$$ZZ$$$$Z$$$7Z77I7 =+=+~MMMMM:~~?$$$$7$7DMMMMZ7II7IIMMMMM77Z77O7$7$ZNMMMM$Z$7MMMMZ$$$MMMN7MMMMM7$$NMMM$MMMMMMMMMMMZI$77 +I$I+. . +$$$$$$78... ... .+IIII. . .77$$7$77$7$Z ...M$7M. ..8$$M. $M....M7$$M. .M. ... .....$$ZZ$ +I=~?. .$$$7+~:N .. ..... ..I7I. ..77$77$77777$, ~77... .O$I 7M. M$77M. .M........ .$Z$ZZ =+7+O. ..:~ZZ=:~.....+I$M ,7I. .I7$7$$ZII77IM .$$. . .7M. M7M. M777M .M$$$.....Z$$$Z$Z$ ZDDD8. .:::?~:M 7~~=+. .77. ..I$$$77Z$$77II ..MM. M+...I7M. M777M .M777... .$$$$$$$$ OZ$DZ. .=~::::M .M+=~+. .7$. ..Z77:~?Z$$ZIII7.......M .?. .O77M. M777M .M77$... $$$$$$$Z OD$DO. ..::~~~~M. +~=~~. ..7$. ...+~7ZZ?+7Z$$7$O. ..I... .77IM. M777M. .M$$7.... $$$Z$$$Z 8OZDZ ~::=+=~.....D+=N.. M$$. ..?$$$7$$$$Z$77$.. .~$7.. ~$7$M. :7$Z:...N$$$.....$$$ZZZZ? DOOD+. ..?$.... .. ...Z$7. ....M$7$77Z7$M. ..M$N.. M$7$7.. ...... .7$$$.....$ZZZZZZ$ O8DDD. .. .. .+~~D.... .M$$$$..........MZO7$77I$I. . .777.....$$$$$7~... .. D77IO$.....$7$$Z$Z$ OZDDO88DZ?:::=+7$Z7IZ?OMN?~ZZZZZZ$$?77$7777$77777$I$7$7777$$77777I$$$$$I$$$DMMDZZ7I?ZO$$7777$7$7$Z$$ ZODDO8O?~~~~:~,:=7ZI$$?+~:~~+Z$$Z$==??$Z$$7777$7$$$$7$$$Z7777777777$D$$IZ$$$OZZZZ7+$I$ZZ$$$77$$7$$7$
Less than 10 days from now I have to move with Mum and Max to a place called Mallanganee, about 7 hours and over 600km from my current home. The employment prospects there are dismal, but I can't afford to live in Newcastle without a job. There's no ADSL+2 (up to 24mbps, which I'm told is what most people outside of Australia simply call normal internet speed), only ADLS1 (up to 8mbps, mostly only 1.5mbps available, which I'm told most people outside of Australia see as dial-up speeds). The town's only got about 100 houses. The nearest cinema is in a neighbouring town about a forty minute drive away, and I'd be surprised if they get anything further outside the mainstream than the occasional Cohen Bros film.
I'm packing everything now, throwing out all the things I no longer need, including bundles of clothes and a few hundred comics. My friends knew of the move over a month ago. None have offered any help in finding housing or employment. They haven't contacted me in two weeks, despite knowing that I'm definitely moving before the New Year. The only people so far to show any concern are my two Work for the Dole supervisors, who've both stated I'm their best worker and have offered to be personal and work references for my job applications. Funny how they can see my potential, but every employer deems me completely unsuitable.
I'm pretty sick at the moment. For the past four days I've been taking almost half a bottle of Senegar and Ammonia mixture, antibiotics and paracetamol for my flu symptoms, which still only have minor effect. I'm being slowly weaned off one antidepressant to go onto a stronger type. I'm also taking Xenical, a drug which blocks fat absorption, which has resulted in some very disturbing side-effects. I went to a pathology centre for tests and had a naso-pharyngeal aspirate. That caused a sneezinfg fit. I also had a throat swab (q-tip, aka cotton swab, shoved down the back of my throat), which triggered my sensitive gag reflex. One of the many reasons I could never be in gay porn.
( More whining, plus semi-intelligent rambling after the cut )
I'm packing everything now, throwing out all the things I no longer need, including bundles of clothes and a few hundred comics. My friends knew of the move over a month ago. None have offered any help in finding housing or employment. They haven't contacted me in two weeks, despite knowing that I'm definitely moving before the New Year. The only people so far to show any concern are my two Work for the Dole supervisors, who've both stated I'm their best worker and have offered to be personal and work references for my job applications. Funny how they can see my potential, but every employer deems me completely unsuitable.
I'm pretty sick at the moment. For the past four days I've been taking almost half a bottle of Senegar and Ammonia mixture, antibiotics and paracetamol for my flu symptoms, which still only have minor effect. I'm being slowly weaned off one antidepressant to go onto a stronger type. I'm also taking Xenical, a drug which blocks fat absorption, which has resulted in some very disturbing side-effects. I went to a pathology centre for tests and had a naso-pharyngeal aspirate. That caused a sneezinfg fit. I also had a throat swab (q-tip, aka cotton swab, shoved down the back of my throat), which triggered my sensitive gag reflex. One of the many reasons I could never be in gay porn.
( More whining, plus semi-intelligent rambling after the cut )
I wonder sometimes if we would not be better off without the concept of "forever." I am not so naive as to think that it would eliminate our fear of death, but perhaps it would lessen it. How can we accept that ultimate finality when we are raised from birth to disbelieve in it?
I am reminded of the novel Brave New World, in which society is rid of religious faith and accepts that when they die they will not go on, but rot in the ground, becoming food for the creatures that burrow i the ground and the plants that rest upon it. Is it truly so much more horrific than the overwhelming fear of losing all we are when our bodies simply cease to function?
This fictional society also daily and habitually takes a drug called soma, which gives them constant euphoria ands prevents them from the feeling of pain and loss. Is this truly so terrible, to trade our passions for a life free of sorrow?
There is a drug called propranolol, mainly used in the treatment of hypertension, which shows promise in preventing the formation of certain emotional links to traumatic events. In one television program a mother and father sought to prevent their daughter from taking it on the grounds that her rape would shape her in positive ways, perhaps even inspire her to creativity the way tragedy inspired Poe and Van Gogh before her.
Their lawyer argued that all our experience shapes us and we should not be cut off from that experience, for good or bad. Though a fictional example this is a very real dilemma: could we, should we truly expect others to live in pain on the premise that their suffering may drive them to create works of art, of literature, of social and other advancement?
Can we place the value of art and progress above a person's desire to live a life free of such a burden? Is it right to deny ourselves and others the power to trade passion and pain for a life of contentment?
I am reminded of the novel Brave New World, in which society is rid of religious faith and accepts that when they die they will not go on, but rot in the ground, becoming food for the creatures that burrow i the ground and the plants that rest upon it. Is it truly so much more horrific than the overwhelming fear of losing all we are when our bodies simply cease to function?
This fictional society also daily and habitually takes a drug called soma, which gives them constant euphoria ands prevents them from the feeling of pain and loss. Is this truly so terrible, to trade our passions for a life free of sorrow?
There is a drug called propranolol, mainly used in the treatment of hypertension, which shows promise in preventing the formation of certain emotional links to traumatic events. In one television program a mother and father sought to prevent their daughter from taking it on the grounds that her rape would shape her in positive ways, perhaps even inspire her to creativity the way tragedy inspired Poe and Van Gogh before her.
Their lawyer argued that all our experience shapes us and we should not be cut off from that experience, for good or bad. Though a fictional example this is a very real dilemma: could we, should we truly expect others to live in pain on the premise that their suffering may drive them to create works of art, of literature, of social and other advancement?
Can we place the value of art and progress above a person's desire to live a life free of such a burden? Is it right to deny ourselves and others the power to trade passion and pain for a life of contentment?
Why do we have no problem turning this:

into this:

but we balk at the prospect of turning this:

into this:

* * * * *
This was originally going to be an essay on the way kneejerk reactions often prevent us from truly examining the ethics of any given situation, especially where bioengineering is concerned. I accidentally deleted it. Half an hour of writing delving into human history and ethics, and what's left? Animals in people clothes. I'm not having the best of luck lately...

into this:

but we balk at the prospect of turning this:

into this:

* * * * *
I've been trying to compile a list of all the little tips and hints I've been given over the years into a short, easy to read document for me to refer to whenever I get stuck. Printed, it should be no more than 10 pages.
This is what I've got so far. Let me know if you can think of anything to change or add.
( Would you like to know more? )
This is what I've got so far. Let me know if you can think of anything to change or add.
( Would you like to know more? )
Why are you still picking on Goths and Emos when there's so many of these pieces of shit floating around?


I wub my Spidey-Man. Sunlight makes him happy.
I want you to picture Barack Obama in your mind. Imagine him standing before you, smiling serenely. Or perhaps riding a skateboard out of an exploding helicopter while twirling nunchucks. Whatever floats your boat.
You picturing him yet?
Good. Now I want you to realise we live in a world where people simultaneously deride him for being Muslim, accuse him of being an atheist like his parents and feed on exaggerating statements made by his Christian minister.
If your head doesn't feel like it's about to explode, I pity you.
You picturing him yet?
Good. Now I want you to realise we live in a world where people simultaneously deride him for being Muslim, accuse him of being an atheist like his parents and feed on exaggerating statements made by his Christian minister.
If your head doesn't feel like it's about to explode, I pity you.
Three doors down from my home blue and white tape surrounds a single driveway. Bits of plywood and pieces of old furniture lean against a wall. There is no chalk outline, no traces of the blood that was spilled. Three days ago, a man was beaten into a coma on that small patch of concrete.
According to a local, the man had slapped his "missus" during an argument. I don't know whether she was literally his missus or if she was simply his partner. Usually, at least in this neighbourhood, when a man hits his woman she returns fire by screaming obscenities of astounding volume and nature, or she will cower and cry, or hit back with a slap or three of her own. This woman handled it in a different manner. She fled the house, leaving her man to care for their child.
Sometime later the man put his baby in a pram and started to walk from his home down the road. A nearby car emptied of it's occupants: a gang of four men, recruited by "the missus" for revenge. The beat him to the ground and, according to my source, stomped on his torso and head with such violence and repetition that his brains began to leak onto the pavement. He now lay in a hospital bed, the police monitoring his condition so that they may decide whether to charge his attackers with murder or merely attempted murder. If he lives, this man will be at best a slobbering vegetable.
Knowing our justice system, should a conviction be secured the perpetrators will serve no more than five years. Less should their victim survive.
According to a local, the man had slapped his "missus" during an argument. I don't know whether she was literally his missus or if she was simply his partner. Usually, at least in this neighbourhood, when a man hits his woman she returns fire by screaming obscenities of astounding volume and nature, or she will cower and cry, or hit back with a slap or three of her own. This woman handled it in a different manner. She fled the house, leaving her man to care for their child.
Sometime later the man put his baby in a pram and started to walk from his home down the road. A nearby car emptied of it's occupants: a gang of four men, recruited by "the missus" for revenge. The beat him to the ground and, according to my source, stomped on his torso and head with such violence and repetition that his brains began to leak onto the pavement. He now lay in a hospital bed, the police monitoring his condition so that they may decide whether to charge his attackers with murder or merely attempted murder. If he lives, this man will be at best a slobbering vegetable.
Knowing our justice system, should a conviction be secured the perpetrators will serve no more than five years. Less should their victim survive.
Bowling for Soup: The Bitch Song
Cake: Daria
The Vandals: My Girlfriend's Dead
Special Bonus Song!
Cake: Friend Is A Four Letter Word
Cake: Daria
The Vandals: My Girlfriend's Dead
Special Bonus Song!
Cake: Friend Is A Four Letter Word
Poison: Something To Believe In
Proof of their Hard Rock-itude: Talk Dirty To Me
Alice Cooper: I Never Cry
Proof of his Hard Rock-itude: Dead Babies
KISS: Beth
Proof of their Hard Rock-itude: God of Thunder (Live)
Proof of their Hard Rock-itude: Talk Dirty To Me
Alice Cooper: I Never Cry
Proof of his Hard Rock-itude: Dead Babies
KISS: Beth
Proof of their Hard Rock-itude: God of Thunder (Live)

